Alhamdulilah!!

Life is unpredictable at some point of time. You won't know what the future will be like and how you are able to keep moving forward. I am feeling a bit restless nowadays as turning 30 is really a huge step for me to plan what am I gonna do in my 30s. To be honest, I am still seeking the right answer to my own question. 

As my epok epok business is not doing well enough, I am still sourcing out new opportunities for my business to prosper and find an alternative to make it happen. I am sure that business is quite slow now during this period but I have always been positive in giving my best for my business to do well. Times may be hard for now but I am grateful that the business is growing even though it is slow. Apart from that, my work is really giving me headache now as I am unsure about staying in the company for a long period of time. 

I have given myself till the end of the year to reflect on what I should do either to stay or to move on to better opportunities. Yes, it may tough for me but I know that given the time I had right now, I need to be confident on my decision. Nevertheless, whichever decision I made will be the right one. Four more months till the end of 2021, I know everyone is anxious what the future will be like if everyone in Singapore have been vaccinated but to be sure, life will be a new normal. Just that how about the world? Are we ready to open up once again just before the pandemic happen? This shows that we need to wait for the time to tell us about it. 

I am hoping that 2022 will be back to normal, 2 years are just enough to experience these pandemic but once again, time will tell. Slowly but surely, everyone have the freedom to do what they like the most. I won't talk so much about it for now but for my upcoming post, maybe I will reflect on the issue again. 

For now, I want to be myself and seek positivity in myself. I guess I have enough of negativity in my life. I will share a bit of my work to you. Work is very stressful for now as everything is in a mess that even my other in charge could not handle it themselves. As what I could sense it, there is a conflict or intense silent argument between the higher management and the middle management. Oh well, even it is not that obvious, everyone are not in the same with each other. I hope there is something to be solve as soon as possible before everyone leave the company itself. 

Work politics happened everywhere but toxic one is very dangerous if not handle carefully. I hate this because I have enough of some people in my work place, either they are incompetent or just plain obnoxious. As my position is not I want to, I have to be sure to get the better position in 3 months time, if not, time to say goodbye. Even this is a short one, I want the best for myself not for the sake of commitment to the job as whole. 

I have talked to one of my best friends about it and he told me to find better opportunities as this is not what you want initially because I am here for the experience to be honest. I guess people come and go show that the place I am in are not committed to give the best to the people working under them. I have enough of all the bullshit that are happening right now and it is time for me to show my other side of me to them that they are taken advantage of. So I am ready to do so when the time comes. 

May Allah ease me with all the difficulties that I am facing. I believed that life is full of surprises and I should be ready to receive it as part of my life. I may not be perfect but I know that who am I really as a person. Time for me to focus on myself after hitting 30 in September. I am grateful for what I have been through but I need to show myself to the world that I am better than ever. Everyone made mistakes but with the mistakes made, we need to learn from it and change it in order to improve ourselves. I hope I am right in this.

This month, one of my beloved sister got engaged and happy for her. I hope she will be ready for marriage next year and hoping for the rest of my siblings to follow suit in the near future. I have pledged to myself that I will own my own house when reaching 35 and take care of my parents. That being said, my parents have approved on me being single and ready to live on my own without any worry. I hope that within the next five years, all my beloved siblings would be married happily. I will be their backbone when they need my help in the future. 

To be honest, I am confident that I am able to be single but time will tell if I have partner in the future, I won't know for now. Of course, I will be happy to have partner but for now, it is all about me and me! My goal right now to stay single and be financially stable so I can do what I want in life without any worry. I know there will be up and down but I believe Allah will give me guidance to the right path. At some point of time in my life I am very envious with people who are born without any worry and able to live their life just like that, but I know everyone have their own path to where they are from the start. I am sure that I will be one of them real soon. Insyaallah! Amin! 

For now, I am contented with what I have but I know that I can be a better me in the future. I know myself better than anyone and shows that Rudy is able to live his life as he wants in the future. No one can change his plan unless needed. I want to show myself to the others that Rudy is not the Rudy that he used to be. Before I end my long yet fulfilling post, I am sharing my business to anyone who are interested to give support to my humble business, I hope with every support I have, I am grateful. I will put my business social below for your reference. Remember this: Everyday is a blessing for me and you!!

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